I haven’t been blogging much lately because I feel like I have nothing important to say. I’ve been feeling pretty dry lately. Like I’ve been putting my energy into things that I shouldn’t be. I’ve been working pretty much full time, so that’s a big drain on my brain. I’m working at the Superstore Photolab (pretty sweet job when they’re not screwing me over with bad scheduling), and I’m also working at a nursing home in Saskatoon. I’ve been trained in three different departments there: kitchen, laundry, and housekeeping. My brain is filled to overflowing with all the things I have to remember.
Stress. Yeah, that’s probably what’s been the main trigger to the migraine that has been plaguing me the past few days. I think I’ve finally reached a point where I just need some downtime and the only way my body gets an opportunity to relax is if I’m sick. Then I have to stay home from work. I have to take it easy. It’s so nice to just be lazy for a day.
I’ve been finding myself to be at a bit of a stage of rebellion in the past while. I’m so sick of the beliefs so many people have that “Good Christians don’t smoke”, and “Good Christians don’t swear”, or what have you. It’s such a joke that people actually think that selling out to the spirit of religion will save them. In the end, what will be more important? That you didn’t smoke, or that you loved people? Why do we focus on not doing the ‘wrong’ things instead of focusing on doing good? We get so caught up in being religious and measuring up to a certain standard of what a ‘Christian’ is that we fail to do the things we’re actually supposed to be doing: loving God and loving others. That’s all it comes down to. As for my smoking a cigar or a pipe here and there out of rebellion to the spirit of religion: I’m not too concerned at this point. I’d say it’s more important to get caught up in loving people.