Burned Out

I haven’t been blogging much lately because I feel like I have nothing important to say. I’ve been feeling pretty dry lately. Like I’ve been putting my energy into things that I shouldn’t be. I’ve been working pretty much full time, so that’s a big drain on my brain. I’m working at the Superstore Photolab (pretty sweet job when they’re not screwing me over with bad scheduling), and I’m also working at a nursing home in Saskatoon. I’ve been trained in three different departments there: kitchen, laundry, and housekeeping. My brain is filled to overflowing with all the things I have to remember.

Stress. Yeah, that’s probably what’s been the main trigger to the migraine that has been plaguing me the past few days. I think I’ve finally reached a point where I just need some downtime and the only way my body gets an opportunity to relax is if I’m sick. Then I have to stay home from work. I have to take it easy. It’s so nice to just be lazy for a day.

I’ve been finding myself to be at a bit of a stage of rebellion in the past while. I’m so sick of the beliefs so many people have that “Good Christians don’t smoke”, and “Good Christians don’t swear”, or what have you. It’s such a joke that people actually think that selling out to the spirit of religion will save them. In the end, what will be more important? That you didn’t smoke, or that you loved people? Why do we focus on not doing the ‘wrong’ things instead of focusing on doing good? We get so caught up in being religious and measuring up to a certain standard of what a ‘Christian’ is that we fail to do the things we’re actually supposed to be doing: loving God and loving others. That’s all it comes down to. As for my smoking a cigar or a pipe here and there out of rebellion to the spirit of religion: I’m not too concerned at this point. I’d say it’s more important to get caught up in loving people.

18 Responses to “Burned Out”

  1. Clay Says:

    Get your rest! Stress is a killer…

    As for the bottom thing:

    Who cares about religion? It’s not supposed to be about following a set of rules and regulations, it’s about a true relationship with God. Which when we have it, brings out a sense that we just don’t care about doing that stuff that we “aren’t supposed to do.” It comes first from a commitment to God, allowing Him in our life, saying “Take it all” that changes us…it’s not following the rules first, then maybe God will let us into his life. He loves us no matter what. He loves you just the way you are, but loves you too much to let you stay that way. That’s one thing I’ve been thinking about alot. God wants me to change. I’m selfish, I want things…I NEED God to change me, for me to be the person I need to be for the rest of my life to be right. Loving people comes out of that, and no amount of “doing the christian thing to do” will do that…it’s all about choice and commitment. God will guide me through it and whoever else asks him of it.

  2. Linea Lanoie Says:

    I wonder if God doesn’t give us a bit of this rebellious nature for a purpose. Maybe it makes us reach for something other than the staus quo and I think sometimes that’s all that the “christian thing to do” is. Jesus didn’t always do the “jewish thing to do” so I suspect he understands. He just wants us to aim for perfection – in him. So it is not like you are going to be settling for some second rate standard by loving God and loving others.

  3. Jeremy Says:

    You preach that thang! This topic is right close to my heart and thank-you Linea and Clay for your incredible insight. One of the North American Church’s biggest faults is probably the focus on not sinning without the emphasis on doing good acts of love! Sound like someone else in the bible? (hint: PHARISEES!)

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