For the record.

No, I don’t know if the baby has dropped. Everyone thinks baby looks really low and from the way I feel I guess I would agree, but they also say that after your first pregnancy the baby doesn’t usually drop until labour starts. So who knows.

Yes, I am getting uncomfortable.

No, my midwife doesn’t know when I will go into labour. Midwives and doctors are not psychics. And I praise God that I haven’t had any completely unnecessary vaginal exams to check for dilation and effacement to give me false hope about when labour will start. Whether I’m 50% effaced or not, 2cm dilated or not, has no real power in indicating when I will go into labour.

Yes, I will have my hands full. I already do.

No, I’m not anxiously awaiting labour with each passing day. I have gone past due before and know that for my own sanity, it’s best to anticipate baby coming late rather than early or even on time.

It sounds silly, but only today has it really dawned on me that we’re actually having a baby. I’ve thought a lot about labour and birth, and how this baby’s arrival is going to be a different experience than I’ve ever had before. I think I haven’t felt prepared for birth because it hasn’t clicked in my brain that another person is really going to be joining our family. A beautiful, perfectly designed little son or daughter will be placed in my arms within the next few weeks. I feel like my heart is growing another chamber that is filling up with love for this precious baby. I’m so excited to meet them.

2 Responses to “For the record.”

  1. Becky Fehr Says:

    Yeah I always found the silly get your hopes up appointments silly, especially the more kids I had. I was 3 cm dilated for almost three weeks before my last arrived. I can chuckle about it now but at the time my doctor kept getting me worked up with ‘oh man any day now, you are so ready!’ No pregnant mother needs to be told they are ready, especially when they have done it enough times already. Very excited for you and enjoyed this post. It was a great memory walk.

  2. Jayna Says:

    I know what you mean about not realizing there is actually going to be a baby joining your family. It’s hard to explain – but in my mind there was separation there.. but the reality of a little person is so hard to grasp when you’re busy noticing the physical changes your body is going through. You are a wonderful mom and you’ve always impressed me with the way you handle your growing family! Blessings!

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